passionate, honest, bold observations about life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness (read: property) from a los angeles lioness longing to be a unicorn. theatre. dance. laughs. love. passion. faith. strength, excellence. chaos.
same as you?
time to work. time to make the donuts. time to grow up. time to not give up. time to remember those who aren’t here. time to demonstrate gratitude for blessings bestowed through action. time to get over it. time to get over myself. the harvest is plentiful, the workers are few. time to work.
The further I travel in my journey, the more reverence I’m learning to give restoration. I spent this week in a small but bustling town, Ft. Collins armed with great friends, my magnificent partner and a nearly empty itinerary and had a blast! Beauty, silence, peace and bonfires plus we were lucky enough to get snow a couple of times too. Truly the best of all the worlds and then some. I’ve now returned to the land of sunshine and honking, homeless people having heated discussions about the government with friends only the can see and a (mostly theoretical) cabal of work. Yet, I am not deterred.
That’s the thing about being truly restored: you can breathe and handle the daily jolts and thrusts with a sense of peace and purpose after simplifying and chopping things down to their lowest denominator. I had plans to see so many people and catch up over drinks, food and film when I returned to LA, but then my body told me I needed some rest. So, rest I did. And it’s been so sweet. (Granted, I need to clean the house a bit and leave things in shape for the next phase, but even that is peripheral to my ME time right now)
Leaving for SF on Wednesday morning to be in first rehearsal by that evening. I’m excited! Strong cast and I can’t wait to see these lovely folk work. Tomorrow, however, I’ll be reading a new short by Ben Snyder along with Barefoot Theatre Co., a theatre company based in NY that saw my work at showcase. Niiiiiice. ;) Glad to meet new people to create new stuff.
as ill post the updates of the last few electrifying weeks, i must always remember where i came from and the ones who are on the journey in my heart.
I CARRY YOUR HEART WITH ME (By EE Cummings)
i carry your heart with me (i carry it in my heart)
i am never without it (anywhere i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear no fate (for you are my fate,my sweet)
i want no world (for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows (here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)
best portland trip yet.
portland center stage and arts and communication are lovely and while work didn’t allow me to see much of the town, the usual watering holes treated me well. lucky me, my partner came along this time and he’s had a bonafide vacation, hanging with our friends, scotch constantly on deck. he also gave a lecture to the students at arts and communication magnet, a public arts school, not unlike the one he went to. i get such a thrill watching him in his element. he’s a smart one, that husband of mine. lucky, lucky me.
ive been able to steal a couple moments away in the grey and have spent much of that in discovering. walking about, getting (moderately) lost—- all the things i enjoy doing in new cities. ive put so much energy into rediscovering the things that give me hope and joy and life and many of those things are starting to manifest themselves more and more often. inspiration is everywhere, as it has always been. i think im searching for it more and able to spot it out in obscure forms more successfully. no resolution yet—- and maybe there won’t be one. the life mantra stays the same: do good work. do more work. do work that matters.
ive got a couple projects in flux right now, as usual. i’m anxious to watch it all settle. ive got a couple big (work) trips on the boards and a couple leisure trips too. ive gotta get better at those l-e-i-s-u-r-e trips. every city is a new opportunity to create new work it seems and make real connection, but sometimes ive gotta just be where my feet are. there are many parts of life. i want to absorb all of the colors. colors. colors.